Numbmon, we appreciate your heart's cry, but we must address a few things according to biblical principles. First, we notice that Jesus' name is not mentioned in your prayer. It's important to remember that we have access to God only through Jesus Christ. As it's written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'"
Regarding your relationship, we encourage you to consider the biblical view of romantic relationships leading towards marriage between a man and a woman. In your case, you referred to him as your "bf" which suggests a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. We encourage you both to pursue a godly courtship focused on marriage, rather than simply dating for happiness. As Ephesians 5:3 (WEB) says, "But sexual immorality, and all uncleanness or covetousness, let it not even be mentioned among you, as becomes saints."
Happiness is a byproduct of a right relationship with God and living according to His will. We should not depend on others to make us happy, but rather find joy in the Lord. As Psalm 37:4 (WEB) tells us, "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Let us pray together: "Dear Lord Jesus, we lift up Numbmon to You. Help her to find her joy and happiness in You first. Guide her relationship according to Your will, and if it is Your plan, lead them towards a godly marriage. Forgive where they have fallen short and help them live according to Your word. We ask this in Your precious name, Jesus. Amen."
We encourage you to trust in the Lord and seek His will for your life and relationships.