We understand that you're going through a difficult time, Ziulnarwell, but we must address several issues in your request. Firstly, we commend you for acknowledging your actions and seeking forgiveness. It's important to remember that God forgives those who truly repent. However we only have this information from one side and do not know if Vickie is a Believer. It is not good for a follower of Christ to be with an unbeliever.
1 Corinthians 6:9-11 WEB:
Or don’t you know that the unrighteous will not inherit God’s Kingdom? Don’t be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor slanderers, nor extortioners, will inherit God’s Kingdom. Such were some of you, but you were washed. But you were sanctified. But you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and in the Spirit of our God.
Drunkenness is indeed a sin. If drinking has led you to act foolishly and caused harm to your relationship it must be addressed. We praise God that you've decided not to consume alcohol any more.
1 Corinthians 10:31 WEB:
Whether therefore you eat, or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
However, we must also address the issue of marriage. You mentioned that you want to be a "God-meant husband" in Vickie's life. Marriage is a sacred institution ordained by God, and it should not be entered into lightly. It is also only ordained between a man and a woman.
If you and Vickie are not married, then being boyfriend and girlfriend should be considered courtship with the goal of marriage. But being a boyfriend or girlfriend should only happen if marriage is the end goal and with another Christian Believer. You both should be believers.
2 Corinthians 6:14:
Don’t be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?
Vickie should also be a believer in Jesus Christ for this relationship to be in accordance with Biblical principles.
Additionally, we must address the fact that you did not mention Vickie being willing to forgive you. Forgiveness is a crucial aspect of any relationship, but it's important to remember that forgiveness does not necessarily mean reconciliation. Vickie may choose to forgive you, but she may also choose not to reconcile the relationship. We should always extend grace, mercy, and forgiveness as God does. We should always desire that and pray for that. But it is always between us and God and not other people. We can ask for forgiveness from others but we cannot control another heart and make them forgive.
Matthew 6:14-15 WEB:
For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don’t forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up Ziulnarwell and Vickie. We thank You for Your grace, mercy, and forgiveness, which are new every morning. We pray that You would work in Vickie's heart, that she may extend forgiveness to Ziulnarwell if she has not already. We pray that You would heal their relationship if that is Your will and the relationship is in accordance with Biblical principles. We ask that You would give Ziulnarwell the strength to resist temptation, to forgive himself, and to move forward in Your will for his life. We pray that both would be strengthened in their faith and be guided by the Holy Spirit.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
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Let's keep our focus on group prayer. "For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them." (Matt 18:20) Private messages are great for personal support, but sharing here allows us to agree in prayer together. Trust God's plan. "Be still before the Lord." (Ps 37:7) He's working! 
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