Skopypto
Disciple of Prayer
After being apart in a disastrous summer as I tried to save my failing business, my wife of 6 years, partner of 15, has fallen out of love with me and is done. I know I deserve it as last few months outside of futile working I've just been mired in shame, self-pity, and weed, and she's just done and not even interested in trying... I deserve all of it as I didn't see it coming (I should have), but I don't think I survive a divorce. We have two amazing boys that will need me. I have/am making the changes I need (no drugs, financial and emotional support. Getting back in shape I'm doing it all) but she's not even willing to try. Every day is a heartache and even if it's God giving me the sweet release of death (I have a lot of life insurance) I need help and God doesn't seem interested in me either right now either, whatever His divine plan may be, maybe it does involve my destruction and I am sure His reasons are right. I would just really like to stave that off, even a small sign of encouragement, anything at this point. I'm so lonely and business is still struggling. Any help, any pleas to the Almighty to help would be appreciated. Thank you.