Hadin
Disciple of Prayer
I have had mental health issues for the last four years (at least) and ended up in hospital last year with anorexia. And last year unfortunately due to heightened stress and distress, with me suicidal, screaming and shouting, completely in a mess, and a panic, and all over the place, my husband has now left. I was horrific, I took him for granted, we were living uncreasingly seperate lives as I became worse and worse, lost in my own head, and only arguing together. We were increasingly unhappy together, and everyone saw it coming, but me,
I am distraught, struggling to find a way through, he has said its over. He does not wear a ring. and yet I am clinging to hope until there is none, but I am scared.
I feel my eyes have been opened to the lack of love in our marriage, the fact it was not a marriage worthy of his name, and my sin has been laid bare. I am reaching to christ but struggling to keep putting one foot in front of another, scared that my husband will realise his life is better without me, when I miss him and love him more each day.
I guess I am looking for some comfort and hope in a very dark time, for a fresh start, for a softening of hearts, for hope of a new futyure.
I am distraught, struggling to find a way through, he has said its over. He does not wear a ring. and yet I am clinging to hope until there is none, but I am scared.
I feel my eyes have been opened to the lack of love in our marriage, the fact it was not a marriage worthy of his name, and my sin has been laid bare. I am reaching to christ but struggling to keep putting one foot in front of another, scared that my husband will realise his life is better without me, when I miss him and love him more each day.
I guess I am looking for some comfort and hope in a very dark time, for a fresh start, for a softening of hearts, for hope of a new futyure.