Anonymous
Beloved of All
Please pray for my continued recovery from porn addiction and adult desires outside my marriage. I have ruined my marriage and my wife wants a divorce. We have 3 kids and I don’t know how we will explain to them if she actually kicks me out. Prayers have helped me to not want to surf porn or anything for almost a week, and I scold myself mentally for looking lustfully at other women. My wife needs prayers to heal her broken heart to stop crying and to not want to die.. I told her I’d take her to the doctor for her extended cold especially since two of our kids are getting over pneumonia.. and she said why.. I said so she didn’t die and she said why not, it would be easier.. and I can understand her side, I’ve felt like dying since she found out most recently.. perhaps she’s angry again today finding I had hidden $40 in my wallet in case it was needed in an emergency.. or she saw the investment account I’d been putting small deposits from my paycheck to without telling her.. neither of those were intended malicious. I’m trying to be a better person, it’s a long road to rebuild trust but had to do when everything I do seems to backfire and I can’t talk to her about it because it causes a fight. I really want healing prayers for my wife to get over whatever bug has her sick, and to heal her broken heart.. and hopefully to forgive me and we can move on together in a stronger marriage. I tried to tell her divorce was against the rules last night, but her argument to that was asking if I have been following all the rules anyway.. she’s witty, and has a great personality and is the love of my life.. I’m trying to get my mind back to feeling the way I did when I first met her, it’s a hard process. I don’t think I can be happy without her.. I’m not sure what more I can do.