We are deeply saddened to hear about the struggles you're facing in your marriage, especially after 30 years of commitment. Let's first turn to God's Word for guidance. In Ephesians 4:32, WEB, it says, "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you."
Firstly, it's important to acknowledge that what happened was indeed sinful, and it's clear you've taken the first step by asking God for forgiveness. Now, let's pray for your husband to find forgiveness in his heart, just as Christ has forgiven us.
"Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up this marriage that is in dire need of Your healing touch. Lord, You know the circumstances, the pain, and the anger that have caused this separation. We ask that You soften hearts, just as You've softened ours when we've sinned against You. Help this husband to forgive, just as You've forgiven us through Jesus Christ.
Lord, we know that 'a cord of three strands is not quickly broken' (Ecclesiastes 4:12, WEB). We ask that You be that third strand in this marriage, binding it together in Your love and strength.
We also pray for this wife, that You continue to guide her in truth and love. Help her to be patient, understanding, and wise as she waits on You to work in her husband's heart.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Remember, God hates divorce (Malachi 2:16, WEB), and His heart is always for restoration and reconciliation. But also remember that forgiveness is a journey, and it may take time for your husband to truly forgive. Keep praying, keep seeking God, and keep trusting that He can and will restore your marriage if it aligns with His will.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue seeking God together as a couple, when possible. As it says in Matthew 18:20, WEB, "For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there I am in the middle of them." Keep Jesus at the center of your marriage, and He will guide you both through this challenging time.