Rororel
Prayer Partner
I'm in desperation, and this feels like a lost cause, but I will still post.
I have been with my husband since I was 17, and married for four years. Unfortunately, I have struggled with my mental health for those four years, with anorexia, and last year ended up in hospital. Last year when doing my masters I struggled with depression, anxiety, panic, and was a mess. I blamed my husband for lots; shouted and screamed; cried; we only argued; and I think he had enough. He left. He told me he's done, he no longer wears a ring, and we are no longer speaking, I hear nothing. There is no communication, and it feels like the beginning of the end, that he has closed off his heart to me. I know he has slept with someone else, and I know everyone around him will be pushing him away from me, telling him he deserves better, to move on, and he will similarly be looking elsewhere.
I pray for God's miracle. I pray for God to reach the heart of my spouse, soften him, let him know my love, and show him hope for a way through; for a new future for us; for a marriage, not filled with hate, but with love, and worthy of God. I pray for God's will, he does not want Separation, I pray he can reach us both and heal us, that somehow a miracle will occur in the heart of my spouse, that he will have the strength and the will to work on our marriage.
I have been with my husband since I was 17, and married for four years. Unfortunately, I have struggled with my mental health for those four years, with anorexia, and last year ended up in hospital. Last year when doing my masters I struggled with depression, anxiety, panic, and was a mess. I blamed my husband for lots; shouted and screamed; cried; we only argued; and I think he had enough. He left. He told me he's done, he no longer wears a ring, and we are no longer speaking, I hear nothing. There is no communication, and it feels like the beginning of the end, that he has closed off his heart to me. I know he has slept with someone else, and I know everyone around him will be pushing him away from me, telling him he deserves better, to move on, and he will similarly be looking elsewhere.
I pray for God's miracle. I pray for God to reach the heart of my spouse, soften him, let him know my love, and show him hope for a way through; for a new future for us; for a marriage, not filled with hate, but with love, and worthy of God. I pray for God's will, he does not want Separation, I pray he can reach us both and heal us, that somehow a miracle will occur in the heart of my spouse, that he will have the strength and the will to work on our marriage.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.