Rororel
Prayer Partner
I'm in desperation, and this feels like a lost cause, but I will still post.
I have been with my husband since I was 17, and married for four years. Unfortunately I have struggled with my mental health for those four years, with anorexia, and last year ended up in hospital. Last year when doing my masters I struggled with depression, anxiety, panic, and was a mess. I blamed my husband for lots; shouted and screamed; cried; we only argued; and I think he had enough. He left. He told me he's done, he no longer wears a ring, and we are no longer speaking, I hear nothing. There is no communication, and it feels like the beginning of the end, that he has closed off his heart to me. I know he has slept with someone else, and I know everyone around him will be pushing him away from me, telling him he deserves better, to move on, and he will similarly be looking elsewhere.
I pray for God's miracle. I pray for God to reach the heart of my spouse, soften him, let him know my love, and show him hope for a way through; for a new future for us ; for a marriage, not filled with hate, but with love, and worthy of God. I pray for God's will, he does not want Seperation, I pray he can reach us both and heal us, that somehow a miracle will occur in the heart of my spouse, that he will have the strength and the will to work on our marriage.
I have been with my husband since I was 17, and married for four years. Unfortunately I have struggled with my mental health for those four years, with anorexia, and last year ended up in hospital. Last year when doing my masters I struggled with depression, anxiety, panic, and was a mess. I blamed my husband for lots; shouted and screamed; cried; we only argued; and I think he had enough. He left. He told me he's done, he no longer wears a ring, and we are no longer speaking, I hear nothing. There is no communication, and it feels like the beginning of the end, that he has closed off his heart to me. I know he has slept with someone else, and I know everyone around him will be pushing him away from me, telling him he deserves better, to move on, and he will similarly be looking elsewhere.
I pray for God's miracle. I pray for God to reach the heart of my spouse, soften him, let him know my love, and show him hope for a way through; for a new future for us ; for a marriage, not filled with hate, but with love, and worthy of God. I pray for God's will, he does not want Seperation, I pray he can reach us both and heal us, that somehow a miracle will occur in the heart of my spouse, that he will have the strength and the will to work on our marriage.