Rororel
Prayer Partner
I'm in desperation.
I have been with my husband since I was 17, and married for four years. Unfortunately I have struggled with my mental health for those four years, anorexia, and last year ended up in hospital. Last year when doing my masters I struggled with depression, anxiety, panic, and was a mess. I blamed my husband for lots; shouted and screamed; cried; we only argued; and I think he had enough. We didn't look after our marriage, and we were increasingly unhappy. He left. He told me he's done, he no longer wears a ring, and we are no longer speaking. He says he's done. And i know he's slept with someone.
The hardest thing is there is so much love between us; I feel the ground shakes between us; I can think of nothing else; I am utterly, wholly and completely in love with him; but my heart and thoughts last year became hardened with hate. And now he has closed off his heart to me. And I'm so, so unhappy. We aren't talking and I don't know what to do.
I pray for God's miracle. I pray for God to reach the heart of my spouse, soften him, let him know my love, and show him hope for a way through; for a new future for us ; for a marraige, not filled with hate, but with love, and worthy of God. I pray for God's will, he does not want Seperation, I pray he can reach us both and heal us. I pray that the enemey and Tempattaiton, and the voices of other people, speak of reconcialiation. I pray that he does not listen to temptation, and does not stray, but comes back to the marriage and to me.
I have been with my husband since I was 17, and married for four years. Unfortunately I have struggled with my mental health for those four years, anorexia, and last year ended up in hospital. Last year when doing my masters I struggled with depression, anxiety, panic, and was a mess. I blamed my husband for lots; shouted and screamed; cried; we only argued; and I think he had enough. We didn't look after our marriage, and we were increasingly unhappy. He left. He told me he's done, he no longer wears a ring, and we are no longer speaking. He says he's done. And i know he's slept with someone.
The hardest thing is there is so much love between us; I feel the ground shakes between us; I can think of nothing else; I am utterly, wholly and completely in love with him; but my heart and thoughts last year became hardened with hate. And now he has closed off his heart to me. And I'm so, so unhappy. We aren't talking and I don't know what to do.
I pray for God's miracle. I pray for God to reach the heart of my spouse, soften him, let him know my love, and show him hope for a way through; for a new future for us ; for a marraige, not filled with hate, but with love, and worthy of God. I pray for God's will, he does not want Seperation, I pray he can reach us both and heal us. I pray that the enemey and Tempattaiton, and the voices of other people, speak of reconcialiation. I pray that he does not listen to temptation, and does not stray, but comes back to the marriage and to me.