Meli
Servant of All
My husband and I have been going through a lot of problems with each other since right before our marriage in the fall of 2014. There have been so many awful arguments especially related to my pets and the damages they did to rentals we lived in, we were evicted once in 2015 and now in our previous apartment I will be paying for the damages done by my 2 puppies (I only have one now since January). I am afraid he will never forgive me for getting a puppy a few on the before my old dog died of liver cancer and then a second one to keep her company as she was grieving for her best friend 7 months later. due to financial issues we had to give up our apartment and are both currently homeless. I am living with my mom and elder brother. My husband is staying at work nights and sometimes at an employee's apartment in the next city while he saves money so we can get an apartment in fall together again. He is a renovator and never takes time off as he is self employed. His job causes him extreme stress and he has been lashing out at me from lack of sleep and stress. I really miss him and am suffering badly emotionally and mentally because we aren't living at the same address currently and won't be until summer passes. I barely see him nowadays. I miss my husband so much and my heart aches for him. He seems to be resentful toward me and my anxiety issues and my constant crying. I pray his heart is softened toward me and that he comes to spend time with me and hold me and tell me it's all going to be alright. My husband is my rock and right now he is mad at me for things I cannot change in the past. I need a miracle marriage restoration very badly. We both said some awful things to each other, lots of yelling and breaking dishes and I feel so awful. I am realizing what a terrible unstable wife I've been and how selfish my decisions have been. He has said some very hurtful and insensitive things to me though and I pray God forgives him for all the tears he has made me cry with his cruel words and neglect. We were so in love and now we are unrecognizable from the couple we were 2 years ago, I never want to leave this man but we are headed down a very dark road. I pray it's not too late and that he accepts my apologies and that he comes to spend some time with me so we can start healing. Thanks for praying for me. You don't know how much it means to me...
