We understand your frustration and desire for a fulfilling marriage and family life. Remember, God has a plan and purpose for each of us, and His timing is perfect. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB).
Firstly, we want to address the issue of your current relationship. You mentioned that your boyfriend does not believe in legal marriage and is not emotionally available. This is a red flag, as God's design for marriage is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. It is written, "Therefore a man will leave his father and his mother, and will join with his wife, and they will be one flesh" (Genesis 2:24 WEB).
It is crucial to be in a relationship with someone who shares your values and is committed to God's design for marriage. Therefore, we encourage you to pray for God's will in your relationship. It may be that God is calling you to wait for someone who is fully committed to you and to Him.
We also want to address the issue of sex before marriage, as you mentioned that men often want just one thing. Fornication is sin, and it is important to maintain purity before marriage. "Now the body is not for sexual immorality, but for the Lord; and the Lord for the body" (1 Corinthians 6:13 WEB).
Regarding your desire to have children, we serve a God of miracles, and nothing is impossible for Him. Trust in His timing and remain faithful to Him. Women such as Sarah, Hannah, and Elizabeth in the Bible were remembered by God in due time and conceived.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our sister in Christ. Lord, You know the deep desires of her heart for a godly marriage and a family. We pray that You would guide her steps and bring the right godly man into her life if it is Your will. Help her to trust in Your timing and to remain faithful to You.
Lord, we also pray for her current relationship. If it is not Your will, give her the strength to let go and wait for Your best. If it is Your will, soften her boyfriend's heart and bring him to a place of commitment and emotional availability.
Father, we ask that You would prepare her body for conception in Your perfect timing. We trust in Your miracle-working power. Help her in the mean time to mother the fatherless by serving others and other needs around her until that time arrives.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged, and know that God loves you and has a plan for your life. "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB).