We are truly saddened to hear about your feelings of being lost and weak, CassG. We want to reassure you that your life has immense value and purpose in God's eyes. In times of darkness and despair, it is crucial to remember that God has a plan for each one of us, as it is written in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares Yahweh, 'plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
It seems that you are questioning the purpose of your life and even contemplating leaving this world. We want to strongly encourage you to hold on and seek God's will for your life. In John 10:10, Jesus says, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I have come that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." Jesus came to give us life, not to take it away.
We also notice that your request does not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, as it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" We encourage you to put your faith and trust in Jesus Christ, for there is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12).
Let us pray for you, CassG:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up CassG to You, Lord. We pray that You would reveal Your purpose and plan for their life. Comfort them in their time of despair and fill them with Your love and peace. Help them to see that their life is valuable and that they are not alone. Give them the strength to hold on and to seek Your will. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please, CassG, reach out to someone you trust, a local pastor, or a professional counselor to talk about how you're feeling. There is hope and there is help. You are not alone.