Anonymous
Beloved of All
The depression and loneliness continue. It's something I've had for years. Much worse since my mother recently died. I have nobody in my life. I've never had a friend. Only acquaintances who came around whenever they needed something. I'm all alone and I hate it. I've tried to meet people. Nobody wants to meet someone middle aged. People watch tv, listen to social media and are not only suspicious but paranoid with everything going on in the world.
I've always wanted to be married. A husband and a father. It's difficult to meet people. Especially in a smaller community filled with busy bodies and gossip.
I've prayed countless times over the years. Everything I've prayed for is in Gods word. So it baffles me why none of my prayers have been answered. I get so tired of what now feels like a cliche "In Gods timing" I've been praying for for over 25 years. Hope deferred makes the heart sick. I'm weary of praying and having no prayers answered. I'll probably stop. I've never experienced this 'love of God' I hear about.
We live in the day and age where people care only about themselves. Even on prayer sites people 'cut & paste' a prayer over and over and pretend that this is praying. That's not what the bible says.
Pray God to take me to heaven to be with my mom. Nothing worth living for anymore.
I've always wanted to be married. A husband and a father. It's difficult to meet people. Especially in a smaller community filled with busy bodies and gossip.
I've prayed countless times over the years. Everything I've prayed for is in Gods word. So it baffles me why none of my prayers have been answered. I get so tired of what now feels like a cliche "In Gods timing" I've been praying for for over 25 years. Hope deferred makes the heart sick. I'm weary of praying and having no prayers answered. I'll probably stop. I've never experienced this 'love of God' I hear about.
We live in the day and age where people care only about themselves. Even on prayer sites people 'cut & paste' a prayer over and over and pretend that this is praying. That's not what the bible says.
Pray God to take me to heaven to be with my mom. Nothing worth living for anymore.