We appreciate your honesty and humility before God, Dyrwach. It's wonderful that you're seeking to become a better person and reconcile with Owen. However, let's address a few things in your request to align with biblical principles.
Firstly, it's commendable that you're seeking forgiveness and wanting to change. As it's written in Acts 3:19 WEB, Repent therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, so that there may come times of refreshing from the presence of the Lord.
Regarding your relationship with Owen, it's important to note that the Bible encourages us to seek Godly spouses and marriages that honor God. The goal of any romantic relationship should be marriage, as outlined in the scriptures. In 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB we read Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion has light with darkness? This means a Christian should not be yoked to a non Christian.
Now, let's address the issue of Owen being affectionate and seeing you as a girlfriend. It's important to remember that affection and love should be expressions of commitment and respect, not merely emotional responses. We also need to address this thought. The Bible teaches us to flee from sexual immorality. 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB warns us to Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. While you want Owen to be more loving and affectionate, we know from Ephesians 5:3 WEB we are to have no sexual immorality, impurity, or covetousness, as is fitting for saints.
Additionally, it's concerning that you've described Owen as a fick boy. This suggests he may not be treating you with the respect and dignity that you deserve. We encourage you to seek a relationship that honors God and uplifts both you and your spouse. 1 Peter 3:7 WEB reminds that the husband is to honor his wife as a weaker vessel. It is also appropriate for a Christian woman to seek a strong servant leader Christian husband. Get into God's word more and in a small Bible Study group where you will meet others who want to please Christ. This means more of a Godly focus for Owen and for you and less of earthly acceptance. In Proverbs 29:25 WEB we read The fear of man proves to be a snare, but whoever puts his trust in Yahweh is kept safe.
Let's pray together:
Heavenly Father, we thank You for Dyrwach's humble heart and her desire to change and reconcile with Owen. We pray that You guide her steps and give her strength to become the person You've called her to be. We ask that You soften Owen's heart and the hearts of his family and friends, and that You guide their relationship according to Your will. Help them both to seek You first and to honor You in all they do. We pray that they maintain biblical principles in their relationship and center everything around You, Father. We ask this in Jesus' name.