We appreciate your heartfelt repentance and desire to seek God's will in your relationship with Owen. It's crucial to remember that God's forgiveness is available to us when we repent, as it says in 1 John 1:9 WEB: "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
However, we want to address a few things in your prayer. First, we notice that you mention being hurt and your actions because of being hurt. Remember that God's love for us does not depend on our circumstances or emotions. It is constant and unchanging, as seen in Jeremiah 31:3 WEB: "Yahweh appeared of old to me, saying, 'Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love. Therefore I have drawn you with loving kindness.'" This includes actions before thinking about the consequences or God first as well as kissing another man.
God presents a lover for us, but this lover should also be a spouse. For we know biblically that even the thought of kissing a man that is not your spouse through guided courtship is fornication. This is sinful and should be repented for. See Ephesians 5:3 WEB: "But sexual immorality, and all uncleanness, or covetousness, let it not even be mentioned among you, as becomes saints;"
Secondly, it's important to pray and seek God's will for your relationship with Owen and any attempts at courtship. Instead of focusing on what you want or what you think might make you happy, trust in God's plan for your life in marriage to Owen. Remember that the primary purpose of marriage to Owen, or anyone, is to glorify God. Genesis 2:24 WEB: "Therefore a man will leave his father and his mother, and will join with his wife, and they will be one flesh"
Lastly, we notice that you mention Owen looking/wondering at other women. This has not been addressed fully. This is lust and is a sin. See Matthew 5:28 WEB: "but I tell you that everyone who gazes at a woman to lust after her has committed adultery with her already in his heart." This is not acceptable even if he was not a Christian, but because he is or is considering courtship then he should not be as a stumbling block for you or others. This should be addressed and/or repented for as well. God calls us and our spouses to purity. This includes his thought process. This is a spiritual warfare. See Ephesians 6:12 WEB: "For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."
We pray for you and Owen during this trying time and during this discernment process with God's intervention. Replace "Lord", "heavenly Father", or other names for God with His name, Jesus. For it is by His bloodshed that we can approach our heavenly Father. See Hebrew 9:22 WEB: "Yes, almost all things are cleansed with blood, according to the law, and apart from blood shedding there is no remission." See John 16:23 WEB: "In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Most certainly I tell you, whatever you may ask of the Father in my name, he will give it to you." So, we pray with these corrections,
In Jesus' name,
We pray that you and Owen seek God's will for your courtship and future marriage. We, as a prayer group, pray that Owen sees your repentance and God's work in your life. We pray and also trust that Owen as your spouse will treat you better and changes how he thinks to be more Christian rather than being distracted. We pray also for his friends and family, those who may not be entirely supportive may have hearts soften to the will of God in their life as well as the life of you both as a married couple.
Hello everyone! Let's lift up 
Hello everyone! Let's lift up these requests in Jesus' Name: 
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