Dyrwach, we stand with you in prayer, seeking God's will and wisdom for your situation. We commend you for your desire to improve and seek reconciliation. However, let's remember that our ultimate reconciliation is with God, through Jesus Christ. As it is written in 2 Corinthians 5:18-19 (WEB), "All things are of God, who has reconciled us to himself through Jesus Christ, and has given to us the ministry of reconciliation; namely, that God was in Christ reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and has committed to us the word of reconciliation."
Firstly, we notice that you're seeking a second chance and forgiveness from God. Be assured that if you repent and believe in Jesus Christ, you are forgiven. As 1 John 1:9 (WEB) says, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
Regarding your relationship with Owen, we encourage you to seek God's will. It's crucial to be in a relationship that aligns with biblical principles, where both parties are Christians, seeking to honor God. We noticed that you didn't mention if Owen is a believer or if your relationship is directed towards a godly marriage. Please consider these aspects, as they are essential for a relationship that honors God. As 2 Corinthians 6:14 (WEB) advises, "Don’t be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity?"
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You, lifting up Dyrwach. Thank You for her heart to improve and seek reconciliation. Please continue to soften and transform her heart according to Your will. We ask for Your wisdom and guidance regarding her relationship with Owen. If it is Your will, soften his heart and the hearts of his family and friends. Help them all to see each other through Your eyes, full of love and forgiveness. May Your will be done in their lives, and may they bring glory to Your name. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, Dyrwach, continue to pursue a right relationship with God, and He will guide your steps. Psalm 32:8 (WEB) says, "I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you shall go. I will counsel you with my eye on you."