Poud
Disciple of Prayer
love for myself as a child of God I still feel I am unlovable by god or anyone. I let people walk all over and use my love without feeling I deserve love or respect as a human being worthy of both of these. I sometimes want to die. My family life is awful. I am and was abused often. My parents both In jail, violent criminals and drug addicts. My brother, father and uncle think women are useless waste of time. My brother scott said if his wife had a girl child he would kill it because he hates women he laugh hysterically telling me this. Sometime I don't want to live and my boyfriend Herbert who wants to marry me is awful regularly to me and so is his violent, drug & booze addicted, jailed for being a sex offender siblings. I am trying to have a better life and joyful goals. To sell my artwork and give half my proceeds to missionary charities. I am frightened I will fail at this and be useless. I believe to strongly i have nothing to offer humanity, myself and god, or my family that they will be appercoated, succseful or of any value. I am builing an art website to sell art and donate proceeds. Please pray at least I can do this well and be happy with something and trully accept I am loved by god