Apthorn
Disciple of Prayer
I'm praying and been praying for years for my husband to change he's very insecure, controlling, mentally, emotionally sometimes physically abusive it is his way or no way I feel like I work just too give it all too him yes too pay bills too help that I don't mind because we got two sons too raise but he has a gamble problem the online casino! He takes his anger or just gets mad for the little things he calls me names and I never do anything right to him! He's always correcting me about everything!This is not what I thought marriage would be like! He sure wasn't like this when I married him! If I would have known! I stay because I been down this road before with him and I always go back thinking and hoping he would change! He keeps me away from friends and family I don't go nowhere without him because he's jealous we barely do anything fun or exciting it's just work and home he steady on the phone on the casino! I've told him I felt like killing myself he makes me want to because he knows I'll never leave my boys. I'm falling out of love because of this and sometimes I feel like he keeps me there just to help pay bills and not for love! I don't know what too do anymore I been praying and just wondering why God hasn't answered me or what is the plan because if it's this I don't want it! It's painful and driving me crazy. I have suicide thought but I don't because I love my sons and I couldn't do that too them I stay because of my sons and sacrifice my happiness for them! I just want things to change or I'm gonna lose it! Please I'm begging pray for me