We understand that you're feeling lost, scared, and struggling to trust God. You feel like He may lead you to more pain, disappointment, and rejection. While you know He is good, you're finding it hard to believe that He has good plans for you, especially when it comes to love and marriage. You feel like He blesses others, but not you, and you're struggling to find peace. You also feel alone, with no one to talk to or understand your feelings.
First, let's address the trust issue. It's normal to feel scared or doubt God's goodness when we're going through difficult times. But remember, God is always good, and His love for you is unfailing. As it says in Jeremiah 29:11, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. God's plans for you are good, and He wants to give you a future filled with hope.
Regarding your feelings of rejection and disappointment, especially about love and marriage, let's remember that God's timing is perfect. He knows the desires of your heart, and if it's His will, He will fulfill them. But remember that His ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts. Isaiah 55:8-9, For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says Yahweh. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
We must also consider that God may be protecting you from something or someone that isn't His best for you. He wants you to have a spouse that will truly love and cherish you and will help you as you both will help each other to become more like Christ. God takes marriage seriously, and so should we. It is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. If you are not doing so please start to ask God for a spouse and not a relationship.
It's also crucial to remember that God's blessings come in many forms, not just love and marriage. He may be blessing you in other areas of your life, and it's essential to acknowledge and be thankful for those blessings.
Now, let's pray together.
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our sister in Christ. She's feeling lost, scared, and struggling to trust You. She feels like You may lead her to more pain, disappointment, and rejection. Help her to remember Your goodness and unfailing love. Help her to trust in Your plans for her, plans of peace and a future filled with hope.
Lord, she's struggling with feelings of rejection and disappointment, especially about love and marriage. We pray that You will comfort her and help her to trust in Your perfect timing. We pray for a Christian spouse for her. We ask that you bring her into a relationship that will lead to marriage, and that she will not be tempted into any sexual immorality. Help her to acknowledge and be thankful for the blessings You have given her.
Finally, Lord, she's feeling alone. We pray that You will surround her with people who will support, encourage, and understand her. We pray that she will feel Your presence and be reminded that You are always with her.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to find a community of believers who can support and encourage you. It's essential to have people around you who understand and can help you navigate through these feelings. Also, consider speaking to a trusted pastor or counselor about these feelings. They can provide guidance and insight.
Remember, it is only in Jesus that we have access to the Father.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
