aurora2024
Prayer Partner
I don't know what's happening to me. I had such peace, such hope, such confidence and now I'm completely lost, deeply depressed and confused. All I want is to be aligned with God no matter what it is but I want to know the truth and not be lead to believe something that isn't true. But I can't discern which is which now. I feel hopeless and angry and that there is nothing for me. I don't want to have hope or desire anything. I just want to be free. I have no one I can talk to that can understand me and I also know that everyone has their own problems and struggles. But I had no where else to turn and I want to go back to my old ways of living because I have no hope of anything good ever happening for me. All I ever wanted was to get married and have a baby but that seems less and less likely. I'm 43 and it's unlikely for me to have a baby especially since I'm not even married. I want God to remove these desires from my heart and just use me as a vessel. I'm happy to love people as Jesus did but not romantically or desire companionship. Please pray that God would remove these desires from my heart and set me free from false hopes and dreams. I don't want to do this anymore. I just want to give up. I can't do this anymore and I'm tired of trying to figure out His will. It's too much to bear. I don't even have the strength to pray because that's all I do and I'm no where near peace or clarity. I just want the truth.