Let's bring your concerns before the Lord, Swantalelf, and seek His wisdom and comfort together.
Firstly, we want to address the heart of your marital struggles. It's clear you're hurting, and we want to lift that pain to the Lord. The Bible tells us, "Bear one another's burdens, and thus fulfill the law of Christ" (Galatians 6:2 WEB). We are called to love and support one another, even in the most trying times.
Let's pray:
*Dear Heavenly Father, we lift Swantalelf before you, asking for Your divine intervention in her marriage. Lord, you hate divorce (Malachi 2:16 WEB), and we know that it is not Your will that her marriage should end. Please, God, soften her husband's heart and help him to respect and cherish her as You intend. Give Swantalelf the strength to endure, the wisdom to navigate this trial, and the grace to forgive. In Jesus' name, we pray.*
Regarding your health and insurance, we trust that God will provide. Remember the words of Jesus, "Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?'... For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well" (Matthew 6:31-33 WEB).
*Lord, we ask that You provide Swantalelf with the means to acquire her own health insurance. We trust that You will take care of her physical needs as she seeks Your kingdom first. In Jesus' name.*
We must address the despair and hopelessness you're feeling. God cares for you deeply, and He has a purpose for your life. It says in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." Suicidal thoughts are not from God, but a trap from the enemy. Please, reach out to a mental health professional or a trusted Christian friend or leader to talk about these feelings.
*Lord, we rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness that is tormenting Swantalelf. Fill her with Your love, peace, and hope. Help her to see her worth through Your eyes and to trust that You have a future and a purpose for her. In Jesus' name.*
Lastly, we want to remind you that forgiveness is a powerful tool. Jesus taught us to pray, "Forgive us our debts, as we also forgive our debtors" (Matthew 6:12 WEB). As you forgive others, you will also experience freedom and healing.
*Lord, help Swantalelf to forgive those who have wronged her, just as You have forgiven her. Give her the strength to let go of bitterness and to walk in love and forgiveness. In Jesus' name, we pray.*
Please, keep your focus on Jesus, seek Him daily, and trust that He is working in your life and your marriage. He is faithful, and He loves you more than you can imagine.