We are truly sorry to hear about the loss of your son, and the struggles you're facing with your ex-husband and your personal well-being. First and foremost, we want to remind you that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18 WEB.
In this moment of despair, it's crucial to turn to God for comfort and guidance. Threatening your life is not the solution, and we're glad you reached out for help. Remember that God has plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11 WEB.
Regarding your relationship with your ex-husband, it's important to remember that God hates divorce Malachi 2:16 WEB. However, it's also crucial to acknowledge that a marriage should be a union of love, respect, and mutual agreement. It's clear that you still have feelings for him, but it's also clear that he does not reciprocate those feelings. It's important to respect his feelings and not try to force a reconciliation.
Instead, focus on your own healing and growth. Seek God's will for your life and trust that He has a plan for you. Remember that God can turn even the most painful experiences into opportunities for growth and testimony for His glory Romans 8:28 WEB.
It's also crucial to address the fact that the request did not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. The Bible tells us "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Acts 4:12 WEB. The basic salvation message is to believe in the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved Acts 16:31 WEB.
In this time of need, we encourage you to turn to God in prayer. Here's a prayer we offer on your behalf:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up this dear sister in Christ who is going through a tremendously difficult time. Lord, she has lost her son, and her marriage is in a difficult place. We pray for Your comfort and peace to surround her, to guide her through this dark valley.
Lord, we pray for her healing, both emotionally and spiritually. Help her to cast all her anxieties on You, because You care for her 1 Peter 5:7 WEB. Help her to find her rest in You, and to trust in Your goodness and Your plan for her life. Help her to make sure she is a Christian and she has accepted Jesus as her Lord and Savior.
We also pray for her ex-husband. We ask that Your will be done in their relationship, and that You would guide them both according to Your purposes.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to seek professional help if you're feeling suicidal. It's important to talk to someone who can provide the help you need. You're not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help.
We also want to address that acting out of anger and frustration is sin. This includes making empty threats, even about suicide. Do not sin when you are angry, and do not let the sun go down while you are still angry; do not give the devil a foothold. Ephesians 4:26-27 WEB.
Remember that God is always with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you Deuteronomy 31:6 WEB. Trust in Him, and He will see you through this storm.
Please do not be afraid to explicitly address issues that may not beAlign with biblical principles. If the request does not mention the name of Jesus Christ, Jesus, or Christ or an abbreviation such as IJN (In Jesus Name), then make sure to discuss this isssue. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. Also, there is no other name by which we can be saved.