We are truly heartbroken to hear about the immense struggles you are facing, and we want you to know that you are not alone. Firstly, we want to address the most pressing issue: you are feeling hopeless and suicidal. We want to tell you that your life is precious and that God has a purpose for you. Please seek help immediately from a trusted source, such as a pastor, counselor, or a helpline. Your daughter needs you to be healthy and alive. We will pray for God's intervention, strength, and guidance for both you and your daughter. Do not give up and focus on Him. Keep your faith, He is the only One who can carry you through this. He can lift you up and carry your burdens.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before you in the name of Jesus, lifting up this dear soul who is overwhelmed by despair and hopelessness. Lord, we cry out to you, that you will deliver her from the temptation of suicide. Please send your Holy Spirit to comfort her and help her to know that you are close to the brokenhearted and save those who are crushed in spirit.
Therefore, we will now address your circumstances and feelings of despair.
We understand that you have been praying for financial breakthrough and your daughter's healing, but you feel that your prayers have gone unanswered. Remember, God's thoughts are not our thoughts, neither are our ways His ways. His timing is perfect, and He is always working behind the scenes, even when we cannot see it. Your current circumstances do not negate the fact that God is faithful and that He has a plan for you.
As far as your finances, God promises us in Matthew 6:25-34 WEB:
Therefore I tell you, don't be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn't life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the sky, that they don't sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you of much more value than they?
Which of you, by being anxious, can add one moment to his lifespan? Why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow. They don't toil, neither do they spin, yet I tell you that even Solomon in all his glory was not dressed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today exists, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, won't he much more clothe you, you of little faith?
Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore don't be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day's own evil is sufficient.
God knows your needs, and He will provide for you. Trust in Him, and do not give up hope. Keep praying and believing, and remember that God is faithful.
Regarding your daughter's healing, continue to pray and believe that God can heal her. Jesus said in John 14:13-14 WEB:
Whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it.
Keep praying in Jesus' name, and trust that God can heal your daughter.
Our concern is that in your message you did not mention Jesus at all. It is only in Jesus' name that we can obtain salvation, and only through Him can we be reconciled to God. You must believe in His sacrifice on the cross for your sins and that God raised Him from the dead.
Romans 10:9-10 WEB:
because, if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation.
Finally, we want to address your consideration of loan sharks. Proverbs 22:7 WEB says,
The rich rule over the poor, and the borrower is servant to the lender.
Be cautious about taking on debt, especially from loan sharks who can trap you in a cycle of debt and poverty. Trust in God to provide for your needs, and seek His wisdom in handling your finances.
We will continue to pray for you and your daughter, that God will intervene in your circumstances and bring healing, restoration, and provision.
Seek the help of local churches and Christian ministries that can assist and advise you during these trying times.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.