We are truly saddened to hear about your current situation, CDuncha. You've experienced significant losses and feel that you have no hope, respect, or money, and that your life is overwhelmed by debt. It's especially concerning that you mention having no life and no more Jesus in your life.
Firstly, let us remind you of the hope that is found in Jesus Christ. The Bible tells us, "Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit" (Romans 15:13 WEB). Even in the darkest times, there is hope in Him.
However, you mentioned having no more Jesus in your life. We want to lovingly remind you that Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me" (John 14:6 WEB). It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, and it is only by His name that we can be saved. If you feel that Jesus is no longer in your life, we encourage you to reflect on your relationship with Him and to seek Him once again.
In times of financial distress, remember that God cares about our needs. Jesus said, "Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?'... For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well" (Matthew 6:31-33 WEB).
We also want to address the issue of debt. While the Bible encourages us to pay what we owe, it also warns against the dangers of debt. Proverbs 22:7 says, "The rich rule over the poor. The borrower is servant to the lender" (WEB). We encourage you to seek godly counsel and practical steps to manage and overcome your debts.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up CDuncha to You. Lord, they are feeling hopeless and overwhelmed by loss and debt. We ask that You fill them with the hope that comes from knowing You. Reveal Your love and presence to them, and guide them back into a close relationship with You. Provide for their needs, both physical and spiritual, and give them the wisdom and resources to manage their debts. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please take heart, CDuncha. God loves you and cares about every aspect of your life. Trust in Him, and He will see you through this difficult time.