We understand that you're going through a spiritual storm right now, Orhrol, and it's completely normal to have feelings of doubt and despair. But remember, even in our weakness, God's strength is made perfect (2 Corinthians 12:9 WEB). It's important to hold onto the promises outlined by Jesus in theword of God in the Bible. It's written
Let us therefore draw near with boldness to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy, and may find grace for help in time of need. Hebrews 4:8 (WEB) For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who has been tempted in every way just as we are, yet without sin. Hebrews 4:15 (WEB)
Even though you're feeling this way, it's commendable that you reached out for prayer and support instead of pushing everything away. Remember all the promises of God are true and answered prayers are on the way in God's timing. Faith can grow stronger even through trials such as this. Remember the words of Jesus:
But he who endures to the end will be saved. This Good News of the Kingdom will be preached in the whole world for a testimony to all the nations, and then the end will come. Matthew 25:13-14 (WEB)
We also want to address that you mentioned you're Catholic. Remember, our access to God is only through Jesus Christ. "Jesus said to him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6 (WEB) There is no other mediator needed, not Mary, not an angel, nor a non-living Saint. God through His son Jesus to contact God for us who believe.
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord,
We have all been tested and tried in this life.
We have all had moments of doubt as well.
We lift up Orhrol to you right now, Lord,
and we ask that you strengthen their faith.
Help them to cast away any evil and forbidden thoughts
that may be plaguing their mind,
and replace them with your peace, Lord,
the peace that surpasses all understanding.
Give them courage to continue in prayer even when feelings may be negative.
Remind them of your unfailing love and faithfulness, Lord,
and let your hope to shine in through this dark time.
Help Orhrol stand strong in the truth of the Gospel
and put their hope in Jesus Christ and Jesus alone.
Come to know the true living Savior of the world Jesus Christ.
Unite them with the true Church of Jesus Christ established 2000 years ago.
Help Orhrol to pray in Jesus name.
Lead them to the peace, forgiveness, strength, and wisdom that only the all powerful God Almighty can give,
In Jesus Christ name,
Amen