Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Lord what do you do if I pray for my wife to specifically want to love me again, please help her just find desire and love and a willingness to try at our marriage. It’s too late in her mind but years ago it was too late in mine. Please remove the many obstacles blocking that and then help us heal the many we can. Show her that I am not just changing for her but for me and that I am a new person but also with the good things of the old me, the things she loved. Help her to see You in me, and me being a better Christian man so that I can be a better Christian husband. Help her miss my presence and warmth and my affection. If she just remembered some of these things it would help. Help her to see that mentally I have changed but in ways that are so beneficial to my own life and to hers. Lord even if you help soften her heart or open the door to a chance 1% a day, that gives me something to work with. Right now her door seems so closed. I miss and love my wife Lord, I want to fight for our family to stay together. I know it will take a ton of work and You, it will take You intervening and showing mercy and grace on us and dropping some blessings in our laps after we start back on this process. Just something to tell her things are in right direction. She seems to be finding peace in the fact that she wants a divorce. You have not given me that peace yet, nor do I think you will, but I have prayed about it and been listening. But if not then only you can help my family here. I’m getting beat up, please what can be done to open her eyes to You and to me. I don’t want to push any issues with her because I don’t know if she is waiting to hold it against me, because she has several times. If her mind even seemed receptive to me that would be a good place to start, but she cringes at my touch. I’m not trying to be pushy, but Lord that seems like a huge sign that she hates me. It hurts to see the person you love not be accepting of even a touch on the shoulder. Also Lord, I’m showing her support on so many things and she keeps just by passing it. If it’s because something is distracting her or she is just so hurt by me, then please help there. I don’t know what to do. I trust you and I am following your direction but now those around us are attacking me too and I just don’t understand. The marriage counselor turned her against me and now her mom who I knew would take her side, but not paint me as some danger like she has. Lord please bring out truth and mercy. I love you and thank you for what you have done. Please take action today Lord, I’m asking for real action today.