anonymous7367
Humble Servant of All
Lord thank you for the 80 degree breezy day. 20 degrees above normal. You know I don't like cold weather.
I had to post date a 2 month payment to keep our services on. Couple of problems with that is the new bill is now due so that's 3 payments on one bill. We don't have the money to cover it. But, I had to agree to the post dated payment to keep our services on. If the services are shutoff I will catch you know what from my husband.
You know the saying "can't win for losing". We have -0- in our bank account and no cash on hand. My husband put the last $###.00 in his vehicle this morning. That has to last until he gets paid on the 30th. He is actually borrowing this vehicle from his mom because it gets better fuel mileage than his ### year old truck. My car has 1/16th tank of gas that has to last til the 30th. We still have to pay our taxes, October and November bills, and some other bills that are older than that. We have to pick up the deer meat my husband had ground up into hamburger and sausage before we lose it. It is 3 times cheaper than what you pay for regular hamburger and sausage in the grocery store and is organic. We would have ground it ourselves but we don't have the equipment. I need to pay the doctor so I can go and get prescriptions then I need money to buy the medications. I am supposed to keep certain medications on hand but haven't been able to afford to pay my bill off so I can't go to the doc till it's paid and then pay the deductible for this year because I haven't been at all this year because of the outstanding bill. And with the food in the pantry, fridge, freezer we will run out this weekend. We are almost out of bread and I have to make lunches for my husband. I pray the toilet paper holds out. I am not joking....I will be out of soap by Friday.
Our church can't help as we are on the verge of closing the doors, social services won't help, done tried, no family close by, friends struggling too. We are known for taking in homeless families in our ### square ft home.
I have a week to come up with these monies to pay these bills. I know, good luck with that. I know you are saying you have to believe. I cannot count the number of prayers I have prayed believing that God would bless me with the money to pay my bills catch up the past due bills and have the money to take care of the things that need to be taken care of only to be repeatedly disappointed. There have been times he has allowed bills to be put off buying me time like today but then I still spend all my time trying to figure out where to come up with the money. I can't think about anything else. I feel like I have no life because it is all spent trying to figure out where to come up with the money to pay the bills, buy food, gas, medication and so on..life just isn't worth living, living like this.
The saying goes to be careful what you wish for because you will get more than you bargained for. I know this is true. But, right now, I wish for $###,###.##. In my hands tax free money. I could pay us out of debt, (we never had credit cards), this would include all our medical bills, would catch all the household bills up to date, pay off our taxes, I could finally go to the doctor and get my much needed medication, my tithes would be paid.
You say work, well if someone would hire me based on the hours I can work I would. I have been trying for over three years. I have tried some of this internet stuff but didn't make anything. I have tried some MLMs and lost money. I can't afford to lose my little bit of disability. If my husband died right now that's all I would have because I am nowhere close to retirement age. And the sad thing is if he died right now ### of our bills would be paid in full because they have life policies built in. I keep my granddaughter to help my son/daughter-in-law out because they can't afford rent and daycare and my nerves will not handle anymore children. We still have one at home and ### that live with the other parents that come for visitation and have to provide transportation for that as both live out of town and one out of state.
Please pray the Lord will provide a way in the next day for me to legally obtain the money to pay October, November and all other past due bills, money for gas, food, medication, doctor visits, taxes so my husband's wages don't get garnished next week, pick up the deer meat so we don't lose it.
In Jesus name I pray this holding God to his promises in Jesus name I pray. Amen
I had to post date a 2 month payment to keep our services on. Couple of problems with that is the new bill is now due so that's 3 payments on one bill. We don't have the money to cover it. But, I had to agree to the post dated payment to keep our services on. If the services are shutoff I will catch you know what from my husband.
You know the saying "can't win for losing". We have -0- in our bank account and no cash on hand. My husband put the last $###.00 in his vehicle this morning. That has to last until he gets paid on the 30th. He is actually borrowing this vehicle from his mom because it gets better fuel mileage than his ### year old truck. My car has 1/16th tank of gas that has to last til the 30th. We still have to pay our taxes, October and November bills, and some other bills that are older than that. We have to pick up the deer meat my husband had ground up into hamburger and sausage before we lose it. It is 3 times cheaper than what you pay for regular hamburger and sausage in the grocery store and is organic. We would have ground it ourselves but we don't have the equipment. I need to pay the doctor so I can go and get prescriptions then I need money to buy the medications. I am supposed to keep certain medications on hand but haven't been able to afford to pay my bill off so I can't go to the doc till it's paid and then pay the deductible for this year because I haven't been at all this year because of the outstanding bill. And with the food in the pantry, fridge, freezer we will run out this weekend. We are almost out of bread and I have to make lunches for my husband. I pray the toilet paper holds out. I am not joking....I will be out of soap by Friday.
Our church can't help as we are on the verge of closing the doors, social services won't help, done tried, no family close by, friends struggling too. We are known for taking in homeless families in our ### square ft home.
I have a week to come up with these monies to pay these bills. I know, good luck with that. I know you are saying you have to believe. I cannot count the number of prayers I have prayed believing that God would bless me with the money to pay my bills catch up the past due bills and have the money to take care of the things that need to be taken care of only to be repeatedly disappointed. There have been times he has allowed bills to be put off buying me time like today but then I still spend all my time trying to figure out where to come up with the money. I can't think about anything else. I feel like I have no life because it is all spent trying to figure out where to come up with the money to pay the bills, buy food, gas, medication and so on..life just isn't worth living, living like this.
The saying goes to be careful what you wish for because you will get more than you bargained for. I know this is true. But, right now, I wish for $###,###.##. In my hands tax free money. I could pay us out of debt, (we never had credit cards), this would include all our medical bills, would catch all the household bills up to date, pay off our taxes, I could finally go to the doctor and get my much needed medication, my tithes would be paid.
You say work, well if someone would hire me based on the hours I can work I would. I have been trying for over three years. I have tried some of this internet stuff but didn't make anything. I have tried some MLMs and lost money. I can't afford to lose my little bit of disability. If my husband died right now that's all I would have because I am nowhere close to retirement age. And the sad thing is if he died right now ### of our bills would be paid in full because they have life policies built in. I keep my granddaughter to help my son/daughter-in-law out because they can't afford rent and daycare and my nerves will not handle anymore children. We still have one at home and ### that live with the other parents that come for visitation and have to provide transportation for that as both live out of town and one out of state.
Please pray the Lord will provide a way in the next day for me to legally obtain the money to pay October, November and all other past due bills, money for gas, food, medication, doctor visits, taxes so my husband's wages don't get garnished next week, pick up the deer meat so we don't lose it.
In Jesus name I pray this holding God to his promises in Jesus name I pray. Amen
