We understand your feelings of weariness and your desire to be in a place where you feel loved. It's important to remember that God has a purpose and a plan for your life here on earth. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,’ says Yahweh, ‘thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
However, we want to address the phrase "take me home" in your prayer. While it's understandable to feel this way, we must remember that our ultimate home is with the Lord, and that time will come when He calls us. Meanwhile, God wants us to live our lives on earth to the fullest, serving Him and others. As Paul said in Philippians 1:23-24 (WEB), "But I am in a dilemma between the two, having the desire to depart and be with Christ, which is far better. Yet, to remain in the flesh is more needful for your sake."
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up Gwarulapar to you. We ask that you comfort them in their weariness and fill them with your love. Reveal your purpose for their life and give them the strength to carry on. Help them to see that they are loved right where they are, and that your plans for them are good. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We encourage you to seek God's will for your life and to remember that you are loved and valued by Him. As Psalm 139:14 (WEB) reminds us, "I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well."