Anonymous
Beloved of All
Lord, please, may my dad value me as a person again... may he stop listening to the advice of other people that have only ruined our relationship, may he stop listening to their assumptions about me and listen to who I am like he used to before they decided to destroy our relationship because they were jealous. Why did he let them? because they gave him money while I was trying to get my life straight and moved out? I don't understand what was so wrong with me doing that, but the way they all twisted it as if I were doing something evil, the worst possible thing an adult could do is crazy. My dad wasn't sick, or anything, he didn't need me in his life and I had to pursue my dreams, why did everyone act like me doing that was such a bad thing? Why did everything get so wrong just because I did what all 18-20-year-olds do? Move out, go to college, work, date, etc. Try to make it. I am so tired of being treated and persecuted in that way. All because of these people's jealousy. They managed to make me out to be something I am not and destroyed my relationship with my dad and the times I have tried to talk to him he would rather listen to their deceptive voice and not my truth. He would rather hold me accountable for things I didn't do or things that are normal in life, like moving out, except they see it in a villanize manner. And then, when I confront them about how ridiculous it is, they all change the narrative again, and act like I never moved out and that is the problem. Like if what I went through never happened, and they were supporting me but it was so hard. That never happened.. they twist it. Why is my dad doing that to me? Why did he let them complicate things? what do they have against him or for him that they get that power over me and he lets them? why do so many people believe them and try to come into my life and cause harm as if I deserved it? why am I the villain for wanting to build my life and figure things out? why did my father abandon the truth and hug these lies and still expect me to just accept them as truth? why is he participating in this controlling me through narratives, judging everything about me, including how I dress and trying to force me to be something I am not because that is what they think I need to do... just shut up and do everything they tell me. Abandon my life, and everything and just do what they say, accept their lies as truths, and their false narratives about me, with a smile on my face. Why? Why? why did everything get so abusive like this? Lord, please put a stop to all this, please may they stop. Open my father's heart and mind to you again, to your love, not the false narratives these people make using your word to abuse to control others that my father listens to. Protect him from all of these people, give him discernment and wisdom to get away from them and to not listen to them. May he straighten his life again, get away from drugs and things.... learn to be loving and not controlling of me again, so we can rebuild our relationship. May he heal from everything my mother did to him and other family members... may he see it was them, not me. He abandon me because of them.... because of his trauma that they caused him... he hurt me... I forgive him but if he needs mental help for this he should get it. May he stop playing like they do...through gaslighting, emotional, psychological, and with some people, physical abuse..may he stop feeding these people,listening to them and their advice, listening to podcasts too about mysoginy..may he heal, stop with all of this, and be my dad. May he surround himself with good men who aren't abusive, or anything like that. Men who will be good influence on him. May he stop defending and protecting these people who have brought harm into our life, and be my supporter and protector. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.