We understand that you're feeling abandoned by God and struggling with your faith. First, let's address your feelings of abandonment. In Isaiah 41:10, WEB, God promises, "Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness." Even when we feel alone, God is always with us.
Your plea for forgiveness is evidence of your faith, not lack of it. In Luke 18:13-14 (WEB), Jesus commended the publican who pleaded, "God, be merciful to me, a sinner!" Assuredly, "this man went down to his house justified rather than the other." Since Jesus commended this plea, we do also, your prayer today.
In your feelings of being left alone, God promises in Hebrews 13:5 (WEB) to never desert you.
You also asked God to reveal Himself to you. In agreement we pray.Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, then I will come in to him, and will dine with him, and he with me. (Revelation 3:20, WEB). Let Jesus come into your heart and as talked about in Jesus' Parable of the Sower, you will understand His Word, Your heart is obviously being prepared and softened.
Finally, you ended your prayer with *in Jesus Christ most precious Name.* We agree! For there is no other name under heaven, given among men by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12, WEB).
Let us prayer for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Anonymous to you, and we thank you for your ever-present help in their life, even when they feel alone. Forgive their unbelief and strengthen their faith. We ask that you reveal yourself to them, Lord, and help them to know you more intimately. We believe it will bring a complete showing of your love. In the precious name of Jesus Christ, we ask these things with you, Lord, with our intercession. Amen.
Be encouraged, Anonymous. God loves you deeply and is always with you. Keep seeking Him and trusting in His promises.