Baswal
Faithful Servant
Lord, once again, I offer you my sickness, my arthritis continues to cause body stiffness, pelvis out of natural alignment, limping on my left knee making it hard for me to walk properly, lower back pain, hip pain, thigh pain, knee joint pain, my inability to bend forward to tie my shoe laces or take off my socks caused by body weight gain around my stomach,. I also have high blood pressure, snoring, hay fever, asthma, as physical ailments that I struggle with daily. Take them off my shoulders and fully heal me. Now, a prospective employer wants to have a second face to face interview with me on Wednesday 25th May at 09:00 AM BST but he is not yet sure from the 1st stage virtual interview if I am capable of doing the job. Hence he has further questions to ask me as I expected. As my spiritual brother, with my spiritual father and mother living inside my body shell as your holy temple, I ask that my calmness, ability and confidence to answer those questions will finally convince him in his mind that he has found who he's being looking for to fill the role, that I would be an asset to his business and that it was worth his commute. My big issue is proving that I have the confidence from the job description to stay calm under pressure and not go backwards to my old ways because it will come. Whatever happens I have to do my own work properly each and every time, to keep my new job. My face to face 2nd interview process in the hotel is my LAST CHANCE to claim total victory! I know that you have been working for my good within the unseen and you know the condition of my heart. I cannot but be totally truthful to you for you know everything and see everything. Nothing can be hidden from you. For you already know what I have been through, my disappointments, my profound silence, my physical, mental and spiritual suffering, my attempt to rebuild and refine both my career and job searching, the ongoing bible studies leading up to the mega critical dissertation you ask from me, the deep soul searching both spiritually and mentally particularly over my career issues while wandering throughout the unemployment wilderness for over 2 years just like the children of Israel were wandering through the desert for 40 years until they were able to enter the promised land. You have given me an opportunity to renew my mind through your word and to get back on my feet having being kicked down so many times. This is MY FINAL CHANCE! I NEED A MASSIVE MIRACLE! I can't afford to waste any more opportunities. I can't afford to put my family household finances at any more risk than it is at the moment because of my unemployment status. I have been unemployed for over 2 years with mortgage arrears, arrears with our gas, electricity, water and we are struggling with the necessary home interior changes. My wife has Crohn's disease, has to go kidney dialysis three times a week making her tired after every session plus other medical and dental issues. I just can't put her through anymore because it is all my fault. I and my wife, have been enough. Therefore the work, no-work, work cycle caused by my inability to do the job in the past resulted in consequences that I have to reflect every day because of the unclean spirit of distraction, inability to express myself to my family, fear, unforgiveness, disobedience, pride, insensitivity to God's spirit, murmuring. As you are always been with me inside my body as your temple, I ask you to look kindly upon me and my situation, guide me through fixing my career issues that you raised so that I can get back to work, provide a solid monthly income. So once again, I leave everything at your feet as you are my captain in control steering the ship. Amen.