We understand your distress, Roshan, and we're here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance. Firstly, we want to address your feelings of desperation. God cares about your struggles, and He wants to help you in your time of need. It's important to remember that God has a plan and purpose for you, as Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB) says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,' says Yahweh, 'thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
Regarding your job situation, we want to encourage you to trust God's timing and provision. It's commendable that you're seeking help from your sister and friends, but remember that God is the ultimate provider. As it is written in Philippians 4:19 (WEB), "My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus."
We also want to address the embarrassment you're feeling due to the questioning of your integrity and character. God knows your heart, and He is your defender. As Psalm 34:18 (WEB) says, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." Trust that He will vindicate you in His time.
However, we want to rebuke the sentiment of asking God to end your life. God has given life as a gift, and it's not for us to wish it away in times of trouble. Instead, trust in His strength and power to bring you through this difficult time. As Nehemiah 8:10 (WEB) says, "...for the joy of Yahweh is your strength."
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up Roshan. Lord, You know the struggles they're facing with their job situation. We ask that You intervene and make a way where there seems to be no way. Provide for the financial needs and let favor be upon Roshan in the sight of their employers. Lord, we ask that You vindicate Roshan and let their integrity and character shine through. Comfort their heart, Lord, and let them know that You are with them. Give them the strength to endure and the faith to trust in Your timing. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Keep holding onto God's promises, Roshan. He is faithful and will see you through this challenging time.