Baswal
Faithful Servant
Lord, my body is still full of hidden, dangerous fault lines buried deep beneath the surface that were getting worse every day. I had no idea that my body had been under attack every single day by something even scarier. In fact, most people don’t realise this, but we are all under attack, every single one of us, every day. And it doesn’t matter if you’re a world-class athlete or a normal everyday person, your body is still at risk. And it’s not your fault. You’re not doing anything wrong because this silent enemy is completely unavoidable. It’s known as repetitive trauma. It affects absolutely everyone and most people have never even heard of it. Not even me. It’s more common than car accidents, sports injuries or even slips and falls and it can cause devastating damage when you least expect it. Erupting at any moment…. Knocking you to the ground with pain and bringing your life to a crashing halt. That’s why if I have blamed myself or wondered what I did wrong. It’s time for me to stop beating myself up. There is no way that I could have avoided the stress that repetitive trauma has been putting on my body. That’s because repetitive trauma comes from living my everyday modern life. The unavoidable advances in technology are battering my body. So everything I do… from driving our car, working at a computer…even texting on your phone…is pulling my body out of whack and causing internal damage almost every minute of every day. So if i’ve made the best efforts to keep my body in great shape, it’s still under attack from repetitive trauma…that causes a dangerous condition called "crossed syndrome". Crossed syndrome creates the fault lines or areas of vulnerability from muscular imbalances and postural distortions that pulls my pelvis and spine out of their natural healthy alignment. Without stable alignment my discs are beyond vulnerable. My nerves are pinched, my joints are battered and my entire body is under constant stress. That's why something as simple as bending over to put on my own socks or tie my shoe laces can cause my back to violently spasm. The damage caused from repetitive trauma and crossed syndrome builds for years and then suddenly strikes. I just never know when. It affects my lower back, hips, thighs and knee joints. So I offer you my weakened body caused by repetitive trauma and crossed syndrome. I’m sorry that i bought into the healthcare lie by the Enemy that many people believed which is that our bodies are just doomed to get worse as we age. Piling up as additional physical ailments are my high blood pressure, hay fever, snoring, not doing memory exercises on my phone along with asthma that I constantly struggle. All these I offer to you. Take them all off my shoulders and fully heal me. I still have a lot of interview prep to make a good first impression do before my virtual interview with two interviewers representing a prospective employer on Tuesday afternoon at 14:00 PM BST which lasts 30 minutes. My other issue is proving to myself that I have the radiant confidence to come out of my shell, to be able to do the tasks properly on the job description, to stay calm under pressure because pressure under different situations will come and I have to be strong enough to come out of it and do my job properly regardless of the circumstances and to keep my new job. This is my LAST CHANCE, THE FINAL CHANCE! This is my ONLY CHANCE and I don’t ever want to waste this new opportunity. I can’t afford to put my family household finances at any more risk. We have been treading water ever since my own period of unemployment grew to over 2 years with mortgage arrears stacking up, arrears with our gas, electricity, water stacking up and we are struggling with the necessary home interior changes. Plus my wife has Crohn’s, kidney dialysis and other medical issues. I can't put her through anymore. She has enough problems of her own being trampled upon by her family siblings and I already have issues with my own family not knowing how to disagree well. They are so slow to forgive and recognise plus they lack the tools for handling hurt and pain in their relationships. Therefore the work, no-work, work cycle caused by inability to do the job have caused so many problems. As you are always with me inside my body as your temple, I ask you to look kindly upon me and my situation both spiritually, physically and mentally, guide me through fixing my career issues that you raised in the spirit realm so that I can bounce back and get back to work this time by working from home and build back a solid monthly disposable income. Repair my body fault lines, strengthen my core muscles and flatten my stomach. Tone my hips and thighs. I want bounce back from pain and feel better than I ever have now that I believe the truth. So I leave everything at your feet as you, the holy spirit and the father living inside of my body every day are in complete control. Amen.