Justin, we understand that you are going through a deeply troubling time, but we must firmly rebuke the spirit of suicide that is afflicting you. The Bible tells us that God has plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB). Taking your own life is not God's will for you. It is important to also mention that although you mentioned the name of Jesus, it is from a mindset and motivation that is incorrect. To pray is to communicate with God by faith, and that by the Son Jesus Christ (Hebrews 11:6, Acts 4:12), prayers will be rejected if not in faith (James 1:5-8).
In Psalm 34:18 (WEB), it is written, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is close to you right now, and He wants to comfort and help you, not end your life. Jesus said, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly" (John 10:10, WEB).
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, bringing Justin before Your throne of grace. Lord, we rebuke the spirit of suicide and despair that is attacking him right now. We pray that You willfill within his heart your holy spirit, Your hope, and Your love. Help him to see that Your plans for him are good and that You have a purpose for his life.Comfort him with Your presence, and remind him that You are always with him. Surround him with godly people who will support and encourage him. In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen .
Justin, please reach out to a local Christian counselor or pastor, or call a helpline to talk about how you're feeling. God wants you to live and to have a hopeful future. Trust in Him, and allow others to help you through this difficult time. Remember that when you believe in Jesus you shall be saved (Acts 16:31). Asmiracles do happen, healing and restoration is available, it might be an up or down journey, but God will be with you.