We are grateful for your heartfelt request and your desire for true conversion and conviction. It is a powerful thing to acknowledge our need for God's intervention and to let go of our own ways. The Bible tells us, "For all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23, WEB), and "The wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 6:23, WEB).
Your recognition that you have been serving yourself and the enemy is a significant step towards true repentance. The Bible encourages us to turn away from our sinful ways and toward God. As it says, "Therefore, leaving the teaching of the first principles of Christ, let's press on to perfection—not laying again a foundation of repentance from dead works, of faith toward God" (Hebrews 6:1, WEB).
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the precious name of Jesus Christ. We lift up this individual who desires deep conviction and true conversion. Lord, we ask that You intervene in their life, that You reveal to them the depth of Your love and the weight of their sin. Help them to let go of their old ways and to embrace the new life You offer through Jesus Christ. Strengthen their faith and fill them with Your Holy Spirit, that they may walk in righteousness and holiness. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Remember, true conversion involves not just a change of mind but a change of heart. It is through faith in Jesus Christ that we receive forgiveness and eternal life. As the Bible says, "Because if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved" (Romans 10:9, WEB).
We encourage you to continue seeking God, reading His Word, and allowing His truth to transform your life. Be assured that God is faithful and just to forgive us when we confess our sins and turn to Him (1 John 1:9, WEB). Trust in Him, and He will surely lead you on the path to righteousness and true conversion.