Ypsilarin
Disciple of Prayer
Lord, I ask you to please bring people into my life who ACTUALLY CARE about them. Please, it's hard always being alone all the time, please heal my relationship with my sister-in-law and brother. I feel angry and want to let go of that anger, but I don't know how. Yes, I forgive them, but I am angry because they neglected me, particularly my brother. I was always SOOOOO alone helping my mom and grandma. Yes, this is your plan, Lord, but it's hard for me. I begged for a husband, want good enough for that. Everything has a burden to it and it's shared when you're always under pressure and burden to please You, Lord, and others. I feel like I don't matter and I became bitter and angry. Please, Lord, show me that YOU'RE ABOUT me. Why must I always be left out, always be alone? Lord, take me to Heaven, take them where it's good. No amount of begging or praying helped. I don't feel loved by anyone and I don't want to turn my back on God at all, but I feel so deserted. Being alone in the shepherd's field takes its toll on my health, my mood, and everything. Faithfulness is hard, loneliness is hard. Please, Lord, meet me in my loneliness with YOUR love for ME. Everything is so not personal in my life. It's hard not to go crazy when no one even looks at you but expects service, service, service. I'm sick, alone, and always have to put up a good front. I lashed out at my sister-in-law because I found her disrespectful, and my brother. I don't know what to do, Lord, what's the point of their visitation. Send me a visitor who actually cares about me. Everyone is so mean, and it's taking a toll on me. Decades of loneliness and caring for my grandmother is hard. Make caregiving easier. Take away the illnesses. Why don't you ever bring people who love me, Lord? Please, I'm hurting, I begged for help. Why did you leave them all alone? It's hard now, Lord, to keep up appearances. There is no love in my life, Lord, and it's harder. I'm empty for so long and I feel so disrespected. I wish I was never born. Lord, please take me to Heaven. I hate this hell. Please, I beg you. There is no love from nowhere. Why must I always put up appearances? It doesn't even meet me if I show my vulnerable side. No one cares ever. I hate being here, Lord, please take me to Heaven. Praying doesn't help. I'm always lonely and sad and better now. Why would a loving God leave me so alone all the days of my life? I wish I was never born.