Ypsilarin
Disciple of Prayer
Lord im aksign oyu ot please brign peopel into my lfie who ACTUALY CARE abut em. pleaseis hard always beign alone allllllll the itme please hal my relationshipw ith my sister in law and brother. i feel angry and want o le tog of that ange rbuti d otn knwo how. ye si forgiv ethem bu im angry cause they neglected me , particulary my brother i was always SOOOOO laone helpign my moma nd grandma. yes htis i your plan lor dbut its har dof rme. i begged for ahusband .. want good enought for that everyhtign has a burdne to it and it shard when oyur always under pressure and burden to pelase YOu Lord and others. ifeel liek i dont matter an di became boitter and angry.Please Lor dshow me that yucRE ABOUT me. why must i always be left out always be alone. Lord tak eme to Heaven take em wher eits good. no amoutn of begging or praying helped . idotn feel loved by anyoen and I otn want to turn my back on God at all btuifeel so deserted. beign aln int he shepherds feild take sits toll on my health ym mood and evryhitgn faifulness is hard lonliness is hard . Please Lord meet me in my lonliness wiht YOUr love for ME. everyhtign is so not personal in my life. it shard not to go crazy when no one evn looks at oyu but expects servic service service. im sick alone and Always have t put up a good front. i lashed out my siste rin law becuase i fidn her disrespecftul. and my brother. i odtn knwo wa to do Lord whats the point of thier visitaiton. send me a visiotr who actually cares aout me. everyoen is so meana dn its takign a toll on me. decade sof lonliness and cargign for my grnamd ia hard. make caregiivgn easir. take away the illnesess. why odnt you evr brign peopel who loiv eme Lord. please im hurtign i begged for help. why idd oyu leav em all aloen. its hard nowLor dot keep up appearances . their is nolov ein my lif eLor dand its harder im empty for so long and i feel so direspected .I wish i was neve rborn. Lord pelase tkae me to Heaven . i hate this hell. please i beg oyu. their is nolove form no where. why must i always put up appearances. it doens teven meatte rif i show my vulnerable side no oen cres ever. i hate beign here Lor dpelase take me to Heaven . praiyng doesnt help.im alway slonely and sad and btte rnow. why woudl a lovign God leave me so alone ALLL the days of my life. i wish i wa snever born.