Meedred
Disciple of Prayer
Lord, I have given everything my all and yet I am still defeated, I have given love, peace, and devotion, and yet those around me did everything just short of a public mockery and tore me to shreds. I am nothing now. I filed bankruptcy Lord. There is no other way. I took in God's children only to put a heavier burden upon our family. The car is about to fall apart, the bills are past due, and about to be shut off. And amongst trying to survive all that I am still trying, you take the very soul from my youngest child who will never speak out loud to say Mommy or I love you or even a prayer. You left him only with a desire to be drawn to danger and he isn't even three yet. I can't afford the care he needs, nor is it available here. I feel like I have to choose between barely surviving and protecting him. As the sign by my bed says, Give it to God and Go to bed, but I awake all night with anxiety and fear. God, please keep the car going just a few more months, please help me get food in the pantry as there is only a few meals left, help me help my baby please, because I have no one left in this world except my kids. I hate being alone.