Meedred
Disciple of Prayer
Lord, I have given everything my all and yet I and still defeated, I have given love, peace, and devotion, and yet those around me did everything just short of a public mockery and tore me to shreds. I am nothing now. I filed bankruptcy Lord. There is no other way. I took in God's children only to put a heavier burden upon on our family. The car is about to fall apart, the bills are past due, and about to be shut off. And amongst trying to survive all that I am still trying, you take the very soul from my youngest child who will never speak out loud to say Mommy or I love you or even a prayer. You left him only with a desire to be drawn to danger and he isn't even three yet. I can't afford the care he needs, nor is it available here. I feel like I have to chose between barely surviving and protecting him. As the sign by my bed says, Give it to God and Go to bed, but I awake all night with anxiety and fear. God, please keep the car going just a few more months, please help me get food in the pantry as there is only a few meals left, help me help my baby please, because I have no one left in this world except my kids. I hate being alone.