Anagniosyne
Humble Servant of All
Lord I don’t know how to proceed other than to give it all to you. I have been praying and being specific about my desire to reconcile my marriage with my wife and have been trusting in you and following your direction. Everyday Lord this gets worse for me, now I have been pushed out of the living room and all the way upstairs to sleep in a different room. I am contained to one room in the house for my life and if there was more money I would be pushed out of the house. I don’t know your plan but I submit to you and your will. I don’t know if it’s wrong to just pray for that. I had been very specific about helping me and then helping my wife, but since August when I found out how she felt, it’s gone from being a marriage to divorce is on the horizon. I know my part in not being the right Christian husband is on me and I have made so many bad choices, but I can do no more except follow you. Thank you for the many blessings you have provided, peace, strength, support, inner strength, the ability to reassess myself and my Christian life. The closeness and returning to you has been a wonderful wonderful blessing Lord, beyond so much, and I have missed you so much and I hate how much and how far I have been from you. I hate that it took this terrible part of my life to bring me back. If I had not pulled away from you than maybe I would have been a better husband and father and not gotten here. Lord the world and devil have worked so hard to destroy my family and I danced right along with it. I worry that this divorce will create a situation where my children will not get the proper access to you that they should. That is a true danger in this, please see that and intervene, often in the Bible I noticed you intervene when it could lead in situation where as a result, someone will not be able to love and praise you as you deserve. I don’t know what will happen for sure, but my wife has pulled away from you and not wanted to join us at church. I beg for my children to grow up in a Christian home, please handle that situation. Thank you Lord your love is enormous.