Iβm so sorry about how youβre feeling, friend. I just said a prayer for you. May the Lord surround you with His loving presence, deliver you from your struggles and help you experience His peace, comfort and joy in a special way. Iβm really concerned that you mentioned death. Please get some help right away -- tell someone who can assist you with how you are feeling. Your life is precious no matter what issues youβre facing, friend. Try not to give up. Hang in there!