Ammandae, we hear your cry and we're here to pray with you and guide you through God's word.
Firstly, let's remember that God is the ultimate provider and comforter. As it says in Psalm 147:3, "He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds." We're so sorry to hear about the loss of your parents and your feelings of loneliness. Know that God is always with you, and He cares about every detail of your life.
Regarding your pregnancy, while it may feel overwhelming, remember that God has a purpose for every life. Psalm 139:13-14 tells us, "For you formed my inward parts. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well."
We understand your fears about your financial situation and your ability to raise this child alone. However, we must trust that God has a plan. In Matthew 6:25-34, Jesus tells us not to worry about what we will eat, drink, or wear, because our heavenly Father knows we need these things and will provide for us. Instead, we should seek first God's kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to us.
We want to address the thoughts you're having about abortion or harming yourself. These are not solutions, but rather symptoms of the despair you're feeling. God has a plan for both you and this child. As it says in Jeremiah 29:11, "'For I know the plans that I have for you,' says Yahweh. 'Plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
We also notice that you didn't mention Jesus Christ in your prayer. It's important to remember that it's through Him that we have access to God. As it says in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'"
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You today to lift up Ammandae. She is feeling overwhelmed, alone, and scared. We ask that You comfort her, Lord, and remind her of Your constant presence in her life. Help her to trust in Your plan for her and this unborn child. Provide for her needs, Lord, both financially and emotionally. Surround her with people who can support and encourage her. Cast out any thoughts of despair or hopelessness, and fill her with Your peace. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please, Ammandae, reach out to local churches or Christian communities for support. They can provide practical help and spiritual encouragement. Also, consider seeking professional counseling to help you through this time. You're not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help.