anonymous4742
Servant of All
Lord I am tired of living in debt. I came to the realization a long time ago that as long as my husband is alive we will always be in debt to somebody.
Instead of telling his daughter we couldn't afford to go to family day at the prison we spent money we didn't have so she could have Bojangles chicken and fixings. That was bill money. I understand wanting to visit his daughter but why does she deserve what she WANTS when we can't afford what we NEED!!!!! That's whst is wrong with his kids. They have never been told no.
I can't continue living this way. I don't want a divorce. Done that already twice. First from a physically abusive bigamist (I was the legal wife) and then with a man who decided after we had 2 kids he wanted to be a woman.
I sm tired of being blamed for being broke when it is he who spends the money. I am tired of being expected to be able to pay all the bills and habe money left over when there wasn't enough to pay the bills to start with.
I am on pins an needles now because I need 4 car payments today. Yes TODAY!!!!! And he has already let me know if the car is repossessed I will be homeless....We need $3,300.00 RIGHT NOW, to pay the car payments and the other bills for the month. I can't remember at this point if that includes food and gas but I don't think so. Our lights are scheduled for shut off and no money to pay them. I have exhausted all areas of funding for help to no avail, jib searches to no avail. When the phone bill comes out on draft tomorrow we will be left with $100.00 to adt till the 31st. Today is the 9th. Child support agreed to let him make payments to catch up last month but he has to lose a days pay to go to court just to make it official. Beurocracy....his pay check last month was $700.00 and child support is $465.00.
I am tired Lord. I don't know whst to do. I habe sent up do many prayers on both matters--- my husband's lack of concern for our finances and paying the bills.
Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and have always felt that we were meant for one another. Even when we were dating many commented they thought we had already been married for 20 years. Sometimes it fills a lifetime. He will do anything for anybody. Mows the church lawn, served his term as deacon, serves as usher.
What do I do Lord? My nerves are shot. He just told me of another expense that's coming out tomorrow for about $50-60.
Lord, can you please send me a miracle RIGHT NOW!!!! Send me an Angel overflowing with your financial blessing so "I" can pay the bills, not have my lights turned off, not have my transportation repossessed, not have his wages garnished for not paying our taxes, so he won't get ticketed for riding on dead tags.
God, please show mercy on me. I just remembered another bill that hs to be paid tomorrow. I will be homeless tomorrow if I don't come up with the $ money to psy all these bills.
The only way to get out of making the car payments is one of us dies as there us a life policy on the loan, the car is totaled. How sad. You ask why we have a car payment. My husband's14 yr old stole my car that was paid for and totaled it. She caused more problems then moved back with her mother so he had to pay child support again. That's just a tip of the iceberg.
Lird I have had enough. I don't want separation and divorce but Lord, I want out of this situation today. Please cancel my husband's plans for tomorrow as they involve spending money we don't have.
I am at a loss. I wish "I" had the money to pay us completely out of debt TODAY without my husband ever finding out.
Sounds dishonest, I know. But, at least I would finally have a happy day in my life free of stress.
Lord please help TODAY.....
Instead of telling his daughter we couldn't afford to go to family day at the prison we spent money we didn't have so she could have Bojangles chicken and fixings. That was bill money. I understand wanting to visit his daughter but why does she deserve what she WANTS when we can't afford what we NEED!!!!! That's whst is wrong with his kids. They have never been told no.
I can't continue living this way. I don't want a divorce. Done that already twice. First from a physically abusive bigamist (I was the legal wife) and then with a man who decided after we had 2 kids he wanted to be a woman.
I sm tired of being blamed for being broke when it is he who spends the money. I am tired of being expected to be able to pay all the bills and habe money left over when there wasn't enough to pay the bills to start with.
I am on pins an needles now because I need 4 car payments today. Yes TODAY!!!!! And he has already let me know if the car is repossessed I will be homeless....We need $3,300.00 RIGHT NOW, to pay the car payments and the other bills for the month. I can't remember at this point if that includes food and gas but I don't think so. Our lights are scheduled for shut off and no money to pay them. I have exhausted all areas of funding for help to no avail, jib searches to no avail. When the phone bill comes out on draft tomorrow we will be left with $100.00 to adt till the 31st. Today is the 9th. Child support agreed to let him make payments to catch up last month but he has to lose a days pay to go to court just to make it official. Beurocracy....his pay check last month was $700.00 and child support is $465.00.
I am tired Lord. I don't know whst to do. I habe sent up do many prayers on both matters--- my husband's lack of concern for our finances and paying the bills.
Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and have always felt that we were meant for one another. Even when we were dating many commented they thought we had already been married for 20 years. Sometimes it fills a lifetime. He will do anything for anybody. Mows the church lawn, served his term as deacon, serves as usher.
What do I do Lord? My nerves are shot. He just told me of another expense that's coming out tomorrow for about $50-60.
Lord, can you please send me a miracle RIGHT NOW!!!! Send me an Angel overflowing with your financial blessing so "I" can pay the bills, not have my lights turned off, not have my transportation repossessed, not have his wages garnished for not paying our taxes, so he won't get ticketed for riding on dead tags.
God, please show mercy on me. I just remembered another bill that hs to be paid tomorrow. I will be homeless tomorrow if I don't come up with the $ money to psy all these bills.
The only way to get out of making the car payments is one of us dies as there us a life policy on the loan, the car is totaled. How sad. You ask why we have a car payment. My husband's14 yr old stole my car that was paid for and totaled it. She caused more problems then moved back with her mother so he had to pay child support again. That's just a tip of the iceberg.
Lird I have had enough. I don't want separation and divorce but Lord, I want out of this situation today. Please cancel my husband's plans for tomorrow as they involve spending money we don't have.
I am at a loss. I wish "I" had the money to pay us completely out of debt TODAY without my husband ever finding out.
Sounds dishonest, I know. But, at least I would finally have a happy day in my life free of stress.
Lord please help TODAY.....
