Anonymous
Beloved of All
Lord I am so sad right now. I have not talked to my bf in almost 2 days. I don't know what to do anymore. Then I suffer from depression and no one has been caring towards me or listens. No one cares about my feelings or realizes I am really hurting so I blame myself internally and get angry on the inside. I want to cry so bad because my life is falling apart. I have no one to lean on and I messed up my relationship with my bf. I know his family probably hates me now and sees me as crazy. I have said some hurtful stuff too. Lord I am completely lost. Sometimes I do not know how to pray and to read my bible. I am losing faith too. But I try not too. I play the victim and blame people for my problems. I am so unhappy. I do not remember the last time I was joyous and was happy. My relationship with my mom is not good either. I found out some stuff from my brother yesterday about her relationship with my dad. It hurts me. She can be mean to me and verbally and emotionally abusive. I don't know how to leave her house because I am paranoid and scared I will get hurt or something. Especially some of the words she has told me are still lingering in my head. I seriously need help God. No one can help me except you. Lead me to a place that can help me spiritually, mentally, emotionally, physically, and financially. Not the prosperity gospel or word of faith. I pray for my doctors app tomorrow too. In Jesus Name Amen