DFP628
Humble Prayer Warrior
Lord I am in such despair...losing my dear cousin on Thanksgiving has pained me so. I lost my grandfather last New Years is still giving me pain...and the ones that I have lost before still weighs heavy on my heart. I pray that you give me the strength to understand, because right now...I do not understand the plan. I know I can do nothing as this is a part of life, but please Lord, help me. Not only has the death of my loved ones hurting me so, but the lies that I have endured has put me in deep depression. I prayed on my marriage earlier this year. I had a ceremony on June 27th...the day before my birthday and it has come to light that he was already married on that day. Not only have I endure the lies, I have endured the financial stress that this man has placed on me because he does not have a steady job, he does not have money and lives off of my income for most of the things in life. I have made so many bad decision in my life, but I think Lord this is the worst. I promised at our ceremony to You, that I will stay through good and bad, but does it count when he was already in a marriage that he lied about? I need help with what I need to do, because on top of the family pain, is the relationship pain and the financial hardship. And on top of that...he has a drinking problem. I feel hopeless and feek like I can not go on. I can not continue to live my life like it is...and believe that it will be best to be alone as lonely as I was...I believe that it is best. I am doing everything alone any way. Lord, please help me understand the truth and what I should do with this relationship. Please Lord help me understand the losses and your plan for my family and my life. I pray of continued blessing and I am grateful for everyday of my life. But I need help as I am sinking deeper into a dark place that I am scared of going. Amen