tina1
Beloved of All
Lord even though I changed my mind and it was still possible with the job decision I am still feeling awful about this...Lord I prayed so hard and asked that if it is not Your Will for me to change my mind that You would somehow not allow this but You did so does this mean it is Your Will?.....I have never had such difficulty in my life making a decision before and it is going on week 4 which has been a great torment...I am feeling very stressed and ambivalent all the time and has been making me sick...Lord either way I choose one of the sides would be upset...Lord please help me I am so unsure and in turmoil over this at this point I have no idea and am paralyzed in making the decision please make it for me which is what I wanted from the beginning to do what You wanted but have had such great difficulty discerning anything on this in spite of lots of prayer...I am feeling like I made a mistake since changing my mind last week but was also feeling like I made a mistake when I chose initially...I feel like I could change my mind once but now I am locked in to the choice and it is irreversible...it would look really bad if I changed my mind again from an organizational perspective either way I burn a bridge either with the dept. for which I won the union grievance job or the second job I was offered at the other dept. which will only be posted if I apply so once its posted I have to go through with it otherwise it would greatly disadvantage that team...Lord please help me I am so desperate for a final answer to this as I cannot decide please forgive my sins thank You Lord in Jesus Name amen
