We understand your struggle, Bepergor, and we're here to help you navigate through this situation with God's wisdom and grace.
Firstly, it's commendable that you've taken responsibility for your actions and have sought forgiveness. Remember, God forgives us, and we should also forgive others and ourselves. As it's written in Ephesians 4:31-32 (WEB), "Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you."
However, it's crucial to acknowledge that Tia has chosen to move on, and it's important for you to respect her decision. As hard as it is, you must let her go and trust God with her life and yours. In Romans 12:18 (WEB), we are advised, "If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men."
Regarding your feelings, it's encouraging that you've asked God to help you move on. Keep praying and trusting Him. In Philippians 4:6-7 (WEB), it's written, "In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."
As for your hope for a new relationship, we encourage you to seek God's will and timing. Be patient and trust that He has the best plan for you. In Proverbs 3:5-6 (WEB), we are advised, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
We also commend you for not wanting this situation to affect your relationship with Natalia. Ensure that your friendship with her is pure and honoring to God.
Let us pray together:
"Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. We lift up Bepergor, asking for Your help and guidance. Lord, help him to truly let go of Tia, respecting her decisions and trusting You with her life. Help him to forgive himself and move forward, waiting on Your will and timing for any future relationship. Keep his friendship with Natalia pure and honoring to You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Keep your faith strong, Bepergor. Trust God and allow Him to work in your life.