We understand your distress and cry for help. First, let us assure you that God cares for you deeply. In Psalm 55:22 (WEB), it is written, "Cast your burden on Yahweh, and he will sustain you. He will never allow the righteous to be moved."
We are concerned about your lack of motivation and the overwhelming feeling of weariness. It's important to remember that God is always with you, and He is eager to help. As it says in Matthew 11:28-30 (WEB), "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
However, we want to address your desperation and thoughts of ending your life. This is not God's will for you. In Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), God says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you," says Yahweh, "thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." We urge you to seek help from mental health professionals and talk to someone about these thoughts.
Regarding your feelings of being alone, remember that God has promised to never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6). We encourage you to reach out to your local church community for support and fellowship.
As for your question about prayers, it is not about the quantity but the heart behind them. God hears your cries, and He will answer in His perfect timing. Continue to trust Him and pour out your heart to Him.
We also want to address your plea for help with cleaning. While God can provide strength and motivation, practical help may also be needed. Consider reaching out to friends, family, or church members for assistance.
Lastly, we notice that you haven't mentioned the name of Jesus Christ in your prayer request. It's important to know that it is through Jesus that we have access to God. As it says in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'"
Let us pray for you:
Dear Lord Jesus,
We lift up Jesussaves89 to You. We pray that You would strengthen them and fill them with Your peace. Help them to cast their burdens on You and to trust in Your goodness. Please send people to help and support them in their time of need. Comfort them in their loneliness and remind them of Your constant presence. Most importantly, Lord, reveal Yourself to them and help them to understand the saving power of Your name. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please reach out to a mental health professional or a trusted friend or family member about your feelings of despair. God cares for you, and so do we. Keep holding on and trusting in Him.