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Humble Servant
GOD life should not be like this, not wanting to die but GOD when will the misery be over. yes JESUS I hate my life, YOU say anyone who does not hate their lives cannot be MY DISCIPLE, GOD I hate my existence there is no comfort, in my house everything has failed, I cant seem to live among people who are prejudice, GOD I think YOU know my heart about people, I don't care what color or race they are, GOD but I cant seem to live with people who have prejudice not necessarily against me but against someone who I am listening to or looking at admiring GOD although I cant leave here because I would be abandoning risibility I feel like the dust of my feet should be a curse to the city of Yuma,arizona I would leave in a second if I did not have responsibility of house which I am willing to sell for ten thousand less then I paid for it that is how desperate to leave here there is no hope for me here, I can barely change my clothes or keep myself , GOD YOU know what my life has been like how I never succeeded at anything never have profession or career, I was raised good good GOSPEL teaching by German Lutherans Missouri synod everything I have ever done was under persecution I should be rejoicing but there was always problems I have asked of YOU GOD thousands of times what to do what direction I am truly I feel lost, if I am lost then can I be found? if I am not lost there is no reason to look for me.