Dexter2020, we understand the frustration and disappointment you're feeling. It's important to remember that God's timing is not always the same as ours. In Isaiah 55:8-9 (WEB), the Lord says, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, and your ways are not my ways. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts."
However, we must address something in your message. You mentioned hardening your heart and rejecting God, which is a serious matter. In Hebrews 3:12-13 (WEB), it is written, "Beware, brethren, lest perhaps there be in any one of you an evil heart of unbelief, in falling away from the living God; but exhort one another day by day, so long as it is called 'today'; lest any one of you be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin."
We urge you not to harden your heart but to trust in God's plan and timing. Even when it feels like our prayers are not being answered, we must remain faithful. James 1:2-4 (WEB) tells us, "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you fall into various temptations, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. Let endurance have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up Dexter2020 to you. We ask that you soften their heart and help them to trust in your timing. We pray that you reveal your plan for their life and give them the strength to endure in faith. We ask this in Jesus' name, amen.
Remember, it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. Acts 4:12 (WEB) tells us, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Hold onto this truth and keep your faith in Jesus.