Giyrilmoor
Disciple of Prayer
Im being fully honest with myself ive never been into woman i live in a life of lust and my sexuality rises over men and i dont want that because its not christian friendly its a "abomination" and this girl name(for discreet purposes im using a fake names) ### she is jewish and i dont think shes solidify to jewish and not many girls ive found attractive to becuase of my sexuality but she changed all of that i find myself flirting with her and i really do like her a lot and ive had a massive crush on her for 1 year now however shes asexual appearnly(meaning she doesnt really do relationships its all mostly platonic) however this one guy name ### also had a crush on her and he actually asked her out and i know it seems selfish and maybe foolish but i really love her and thinking about her moving off to college without seeing her hurts me inside i dont know if its god,my concious or the devil putting stuff in my head like just keep going and basically flirting with her and the other is saying just quit and the other keeps saying walk by faith not by sight and i really just dont know what to do anymore because ive never been in a relationship and idk if its god making me a test of patients because i go on youtube and its like if hes telling me though my algorithm messages like you need to watch this or he knows your struggling etc please just pray for me i dont know what else to do