Christopherperez
Disciple of Prayer
I kept my ex-girlfriend in prayers for a month to be saved and to repent from her backsliding. I don't know if it's normal or if there's any advice, but I'm tired of praying for her and even thinking about her because I do miss her, but I don't want to pray anymore; she's in the world and that's her choice, but I want to forget about her because every time I pray, it hurts because all I pray is for her salvation and it reminds me how much I miss her and love her. I'm lost; I'm still going to church, praying, reading my word, listening to sermons, but the pain is there. When I say I'm going to stop praying for her, God continues to put it in my heart to pray for her, and I'm confused because my flesh doesn't want to anymore; it's too hard because I miss her and she's out in the world doing worldly things. Any advice? I feel like David in a cave because all I do is work and go to church and come home, and I'm trying to stay composed, but the enemy tries to put ideas in my head to bring me down, and I rebuke him. I feel like God is just being silent, and I'm hurting a lot. I already tried committing suicide a month ago, but I'm trying my best to keep my faith and continue to do more in His word and follow Him. Any advice? I already put it in my head that I'm never going to hear from her again and she's not coming back, so I want to forget all about her, but God continues to put it in my heart to pray for her and her salvation, but it's hard on me. My name is ###, and my ex-girlfriend's name is ###.