Christopherperez
Disciple of Prayer
I kept my ex girlfriend in prayers for a month to be saved and to repent from her backsliding.Idk if its normal or any advice?but im tired of praying for her and even thinking about her bkuz i do miss her but i dont want to pray anymore;shes in the world and thats her choice but i want to forget about her bkuz everytime i pray it hurts bkuz all i pray is for her salvation and it reminds me how much i miss her and love her.Im lost,im still going to church,praying,reading my word,listening to sermons but the pain is there.when i say ima stop praying for her.god continues to put it in my heart to pray for her and im confused bkuz my flesh doesnt want too anymore,its too hard bkuz imiss her and she out in the world doing worldy things.any advice?i feel like david ina cave bkuz all i do is work and go to church and come home and im trying to stay composed but the enemy tries to put ideas in my head to bring me down and i rebuke him.I feel like god is just being silent and im hurting alot.I already tried commiting suicide a month ago but im trying my best to keep my faith and continue to do more in his word and follow him.any advice?i already put it in my head that im never going to hear from her again and she not coming back so i want to forget all about her but god continue to put it in my heart to pray for her and her salvation but its hard on me.my name is christopher and my ex girlfriend name is Erika.